*blows dust off*

[ibonekoen]

It's been way too long since I've posted an entry in this thing. I've never been very good at keeping a diary; my daily life is so boring, I don't think anybody would want to hear about it. I get up, I go to work, I come home, I eat dinner, I putz around online, playing Facebook and tagging in my rp threads, and then I go to bed to start it all over again. Sometimes I write. I'm still plunking away at my novels, and I've been filling the time with writing fanfic. Yeah, yeah, yeah, I'm thinking about trying to get published and still writing fanfic. I'm sure that isn't a good idea, but...I can't seem to drop the fanfic, so...I'll just cross that bridge when I get to it.

Still hopelessly in love with the Jonas Brothers. Sad that Heroes was canceled. :( I went to see Tron: Legacy a few weeks ago, omg, so good. It was a treat to watch, and I finally got around to rewatching the origianl Tron. It wasn't as boring as I remember as a child.


There are things in my personal life that have made me very ;____; and >:O, and I've talked about it a bit with likesthesilence and captain_elessar (which I apparently want to spell as "esselar." Go figure). Thank you, both.

Basically, it boils down to the fact that my stepfather is an asshole, and he and my mom are getting a divorce some time in the near future. Of course, that means my plans of finally getting out of Okeechobee are, once again, put on hold.

I have this overwhelming feeling that I'm never going to make it out of this cow town, and it makes my chest ache. This isn't where I planned to be at 27 -- still living with my mother and working a job where I feel largely unappreciated.

I haven't talked about it a lot on here -- I actually don't think I've talked about it at all -- but my grandmother Mona has Alzheimer's. We've been taking care of her since 2004, watched her decline and get worse, and it finally progressed to the point where we (read my mother and I) couldn't take care of her any longer, so we had to put her in a nursing home. That was in September, October? You'd think most of the tension in the house would be gone, right? Yeah, not so much.

Whatever, this wasn't supposed to be an emo post. I mostly just wanted to post, I guess, write something since it's been so long. I'd make a vague promise to write more often, but let's face it, we all know I'm lying, right?

I also need to grow thicker skin and realize that just because one faceless, nameless internet person decides to diss me to a friend, it doesn't mean I'm not fit for life.

Comments

[sakura-no-mi.livejournal.com]

Hai there, bb. Good to hear from you. Sorry life isn't treating you too well right now tho. I hope things get better soon.

*kicks faceless, nameless internet person's ass*

[ibonekoen]

Oh hai :D I really should update this thing more, but I haven't really known what to say, and every time I sat down to write something, it was like "*vomits emo and tears all over the place*" -___-

I think things will get better when my stepfather finally decides to actually leave instead of waffling back and forth...or, you know, Mom reaches the end of her rope and boots him out.

*kicks faceless, nameless internet person's ass*

Hehe, thank you! :D