In the dark, there is freedom

So, it's been forever since I've updated this thing I call a journal, and while there hasn't really been a lot going on in my life that needs to be rehashed here for everyone to read, I thought I'd give you all a little update about that crazy writing thing I do every year: NaNoWriMo. I wasn't going to participate this year because I always spend the first week or so not writing and berating myself for not writing, then I kick myself into action around the second week and write like a maniac, only to wind up with 50,000 words of an unfinished novel that I just shove into a corner, reassuring myself that I'll dust it off again one day.

Well, not this year! This year, I'm taking a step back from worrying about original characters and publishing and all that jazz. This year, I'm writing fanfiction. I know, I know, it's not getting me any closer to my goal of being a published author, but hey, if somebody can take Twatlight fanfiction, publish it and have it shoot to number one on the charts or whatever, maybe there's hope for Avengers/MI:4 high school fic, right? Right?

Eh, if nothing else, it'll be fun to write, and that's ultimately the goal of NaNoWriMo.

What's that? You want to know the plot of my novel? Oh! Well, I'm glad that you asked.
( Take a venture behind the cut to find out, my pretties... )

Drat! I didn't make any posts in October, so I missed the chances to use my Halloween sigtags and blinkies, sob.

Oh well. I'm gonna use them now anyway. Ahahaha


Credit goes to adorablexi

I'm so gonna win NaNoWriMo for the first time in three years. \o/

I started the day off with 36,245 and look, I've written 7,110 words. I'm back on target and tomorrow is another day off from work, so I can totally get some more words written.

Hopefully not finished writing for the day, but I figured I needed to make a progress update since I haven't made one in days. Ha, I got caught up only to fall behind again. I'm trying really hard not to get discouraged, but today's apparently a "feel worthless" day, so that's a challenge.

I'm going to try to take part in the Night of Writing Dangerously at least for an hour or two, so we'll see if that helps at all. Really trying not to throw in the towel here because that wouldn't be fair to Zander and Joseph and even Alessandro and Adelaide. They've been wandering around in my head for two years and I went to all that trouble of filling out that 30 Day Challenge, so I need to buck up and get over my fucking issues of self-doubt and crap. I can do this. I just need to start believing that.

Parrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrty downtown, suckers! I met today's goal and it's still early enough that I might be able to write some more and get to work on tomorrow's goal.

I am home from work, much to my mother's chagrin. I understand where she's coming from, the idea that I shouldn't take too much time off since some of our staff just took pay/hour cuts and that's a sign that we're not doing well, but it kinda hurt at the same time. She was basically scolding me for coming home early because my foot hurt too much.

I've got some kind of bump on the arch of my foot and man, it is killing me. I can't put any kind of pressure on it or pain just radiates through my foot. It's purple and it's kinda hard and it just really hurts. I soaked it in warm water and epsom salt when I got home today and that seems to have helped it some. It's certainly gone down a bit. It was the size of a pea and now it's smaller. I'm going to soak it some more later.

But just... Mom's whole attitude, telling me that I needed to be careful at work and I need to stop coming home early whenever things are slow, etc, just kinda made me :| because it's been months since I took a sick day of any kind. Yes, okay, I took a couple of days off in August and October to go to concerts, but so what? I'm allowed to have vacation days. And it's been months since I've come home at three or four o'clock because we didn't have anything going on, and besides, if they do happen to let me go at work, well, then, you know, I'll just move on and find another job.

Ugh, whatever. This is supposed to be a party post, which is happy. Soooooooooo, in the immortal words of Kevin Bacon, LET'S DAAAAAAAANCE!

Damn, I'd almost say that I planned this, but it's 3:26pm and I stopped to check my word count to see if I'd earn a break. See, I was behind yesterday and panicking, and I was determined that today was going to be my catch up day. I've been writing since 11am EST and woohoo, I just checked my word count and dude, it's exactly 18,337, which is yesterday's word count goal.

Yeah, yeah, okay, so I haven't met today's word count goal yet, but it's just barely 3:30 in the afternoon. I've got plenty of time before midnight to write 1,667 words. I'm just feeling good about the fact that I've actually caught up.

\o/

Thank you to all of you who listened to my incessant whining, whether in AIM or right here in my journal. ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Well, I feel like I'm chugging along slowly, but you know, I'm the Little Engine Who Could, so I'm not giving up. HUZZAH! NANO NANO!

Not bad for a first day total. At least I'm on track.

EDIT: Amended my daily word count because OpenOffice is a lying liar that lies. >:/