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[ibonekoen]

*waves little flag of aliveness since it's been almost four months since I've logged onto this thing...*

Nothing new to report. Stuff with my grandma but I don't feel comfortable getting into it here.

Hope everybody on my friends page is doing good. Will catch up with entries later.

My mom told me the other day that I have this inability to see my own potential, that I just sit around and feel sorry for myself. She is one hundred percent correct, but I don't know how to correct this...

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[bitter666sweet.livejournal.com]

*notices your flag and comes running up to you* I'm glad you're alive :D
*hugs*
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[ibonekoen]

Yay, hello :D *hugs* How are you?

[bitter666sweet.livejournal.com]

I'm fine thank you :D
Brb i'm gonna go make some smoothies cuz i'm soooooooo craving them, i'll make you some if you want! :P
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[ibonekoen]

LOL, yay smoothies!

[miss-miso.livejournal.com]

Glad to hear you're alive and well!

And of course I couldn't possibly know about your exact situation, but in my experience, mothers are usually right about this sort of thing. Maybe ask her if she has any brilliant ideas about how to fix things? Because if you feel dissatisfied and want to do more, you totally should! Is it possible to find something awesome happening in your community and participate, or volunteer for a charity you feel strongly about? I'm only suggesting this because you seem lovely, and it would be a shame for you to hide yourself away. Get out there and spread the love, dude!

*hugs*

[ibonekoen]

Oh, there's definitely no doubt in my mind that my mother is right. The only thing that really happens in my community is a bunch of agriculture-related stuff, and I'm not really into that. It sucks living in a rural community. I...don't really have any charities that I feel strongly about. I definitely do need to find something to participate in though.

Thanks :) *hugs* Love your icon.

[miss-miso.livejournal.com]

I used to live in a smallish town too. It was kind of the centre of a really big farming region, so there was a massive hospital and university etc, but otherwise the town itself was pretty soulless. I moved. Several times! First time, I moved to a big city nearby for a few years. Then I moved to another country for a year, then back home to the small town for another five years and as much as I love my family and friends at home, living there drove me nuts. So now we've moved back overseas, and have been here for two years. Do you think moving could be an option at all? It's not for everyone, but it's not nearly as scary as it seems, I've found. The trick is making sure you have a college course or job sorted out before you go, if possible. It's a big old world out there! :)

(the icon's from Order of Chaos. Milo looked criminally sexy snuggling that cat through the whole film, goddamn.)

[ibonekoen]

....you know what, I was so mesmerized by Milo that I didn't even notice the cat, or I would've recognized that as an Order of Chaos icon, lol. He did look criminally sexy snuggling that cat. The funny this is, before the film, I could totally see Milo as a cat person. idk.

Anyway, moving is the ultimate goal. I t's not an option at this exact moment because I have nothing saved up to even think about buying a house or condo, and I can't afford to pay rent. That's why I live with my mom. :/ It is definitely a goal that I am working toward though.

My car is paid off in October, so that money will be getting set back in a savings account. It's just a matter of deciding where I want to move, and yeah, I know that I need to have a job sorted out, lol. I've been looking but I can't really do anything until I'm confident I can afford it. Going back to college has been tempting, but I don't know if I want more student loans, ha.